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IF MY MOM WAS STRICTER

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This year, I started making big decisions about how I want to show up for myself career-wise, the type of community I want to build on social media, and how God can use me. Regarding that last part, I realize now that it wouldn't have even been a thought had my mom been stricter or tried to play the role of a father as a single parent. What finally led me to seek God was my willingness to read. I read Genesis and thought about how wild the stories were, and then I'd relay them to my family. I continued reading while taking notes on God's role in every story. God's role in my own story was what I was missing all along: a father. After reading the Bible back-to-back, I kept returning to it. This time, my focus was on Jesus, and I started to perceive Him as a brother. In my mind, fathers are strict, but brothers can talk them down or help them see reason. It will all make sense when you read the Bible—I promise. My sweet mom, I now realize, is perfect just as God intended ...
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I Know What I Want But, Does God?

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Mood board by Pinterest Shuffles Unemployed, business is yet to pick up matter of fact it's yet to launch and, currently freeloading off of mom. The exit from my twenties is certain but not seamless, it's chaotic, a mess. Nothing seems to be working according to plan, my plan that is.  So imperfect. I've self-diagnosed with PDA and I'm checking all the symptom boxes, laughing. Funny thing is, PDA is supposed to make you allergic to duty and obligation, yet here I am, wanting to care so much about my purpose and my life. I just want my body to comply with my desires for the future. So I'm like okay Happy what's working right now? Well what's working is that we have God on our side, and I'm hoping His plans finally align with mine. The ambitious Capricorn personality they always talk about should finally be revealed. However I'm keeping faith, because I have made my decision that I must thrive in my thirties, the business, and academics ali...
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The Windy Season: August In The Vaal

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It's that time of year when seeds scatter, ready for new homes. It's a season of acceptance, because what follows is a new beginning. August feels like a season of relief, proof of Spring.. A blackberry tree spotting new leaves There are blackberry trees on the third house from mine, already spotting new leaves. By month's end, all of it will be green. In the south, August is windy, and dusty too; it turns the sky a soft, thick orange, the kind you watch from behind a window rather than step into. The afternoons warm up, but nobody dares stay outside too long, especially in the Kasi. You'd end up coated in dust like the ground itself. I remember when my stockings would be almost a brown shade after school. A woman's month, it's a cozy month in its own way.  My mother was born in August, and she's always believed her birth month carries good news with it. I've seen it happen enough times to believe it. That is why it's always a pleasure to enjoy th...
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